Friends:
I'm sorry I haven't written in a long time. I've been having an interesting past few months and blogging wasn't really a priority.
I know most of know, if you've been keeping up, I used to be a serious drug user. In April of 2012, I almost died from drug-related health complications. I was in a coma for 4 days and in the hospital for 3 months. I had over a 100 strokes, was on life-support and wasn't expected to live. I have permanent heart damage and need open heart surgery that I can't afford and do not have insurance to cover, but desperately need. Anyways, I survived and here I am today.
All of the above was a small price to pay to get my life back. That being said, I have been clean from hard drugs for a year and 3 months. Already this year I've experienced a drug-related loss. A friend of mine that I used to use with, but was friends with prior to both our drug addictions, died as a result of drugs. Already this week, I've read about another person who died from using the same drugs I did. I am really struggling with the concept that I lived and these people didn't. I am not special. I am not more liked or more loveable. I didn't make better choices.
That is all. Just a little heartbroken to find out another person died. Thanks for listening... I'll do what I can to post more....
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